Daily Deep

MMMmmmm...what is it about certain times that make you feel introspective...contemplative...what are other words that end in -ive? I was listening to a song tonight in my car as I sat outside my house. It was a song from the musical Wicked. It's a song about a boy she likes that likes someone else. It's called "I'm not that girl" and it's got clever lines in it like this: Blithe smile, lithe limb, she who's winsome, she wins him. Gold hair with a gentle curl: that's the girl he chose and Heaven knows I'm not that girl. Now, these lyrics have absolutely nothing to do with me or my life but I found myself sitting there under my rain dropped windshield in the nine o'clock darkness of a Saturday evening feeling...umm...I don't know...nostalgic?...for what I don't know. I don't know if it was the dark evening drive to water a friend's plants, the quietness of the post office drive thru, the cool breeze through my window as I made an ATM deposit, or the fact that I've been watching Sex & the City (which is laden with my above phrase "I don't know if it was...") but I just really felt like I needed to sit for a minute...in my car...and sadly sing those words along with the actress in my IPod. I don't know...I don't know what I'm feeling right now.

I want to say that I'm feeling in flux...maybe unsure...I don't really know what I've got to be unsure about but there are things in my life that feel out of my control. The weird thing is there are no big things that definitely need my control. Melancholy...is that how I'm feeling? Hmm...I don't know. I'll try to be in a better mood. A more alive mood...a less quiet mood.

So, after asking you to PROMISE to not let me slack off on the daily stuff you big fat went and did it anyway! :-)
2-17-09
School after a long weekend. Mmmm...a long weekend. Except that short weeks always seem to take too long. It was fun to see everyone's reaction to the final totals for the Pennies campaign...over $3000!

2-18-09
I found this really cool website when looking for something for youth group. It's called TeenSundaySchool.com and it had the latest lesson series I'm using on Truth. It's interesting...my students' view on truths...quite the range I must say. It should be interesting!

2-19-09
Survivor tonight...YAY! Doug comes over and our typical deal is to order Chinese. I sort of like it and I sort of don't like it that they know my name there...and my specific order that never EVER changes! Sweet & Sour Chicken, Chicken Fried Rice (no sprouts), House Special Fried Rice (no sprouts), and BBQ Pork...mmmm!

2-20-09
It's my 34th birthday today and many many people wished me well. Lots of my friends and classmates on Facebook wished me happy birthday, a student of mine wished me happy birthday every time she saw me in the hallway, a colleague sang to me, my aunt who never ever misses my day sent me a card, Sean had not one but two gifts, and some people called to say happy birthday. But why is it I still tend to think of who didn't call me. Hmm...
BTW...Prosser girls played at EV...fun to see my friends..not so fun to lose :-)

2-21-09
Ahhhh...lunch my girls...ahhh! It started as just a quick trip to Tri Cities, that changed to a quick trip and lunch with Nicole, and that turned into all four of us (which is surprisingly difficult sometimes) getting together for lunch a bit o' birthday party wishes. Then out to the farm for family birthday. That's always good to see everyone all at the same time...Grandpa isn't getting any better though and that makes me...umm...heartsick.

2-22-09
Church, school work, you know...a typical Sunday. Ooohh...plus the Oscars. So my girlfriend Kate Winslet won! I love love LOVE her! And Slumdog Millionaire...oohh we really liked that movie!

2-23-09
Typical Monday. No meetings...now that's a breath of fresh air! I ended my six year term of elder at church which means that although I still volunteer with the youth group I don't directly volunteer on the Christian Ed. team or on Session. And that means!....that I don't go to meeting twice a month anymore. You wouldn't think that two meetings would be difficult but it kind of cuts into the week :-)

2-24-09
Now...the down side of no meetings is that I tend to spend way too much time at school. Sean informed me the other day that since I'm so close to home now I can come home earlier than 5:30...we'll see if I can improve that :-)

Oh...and a yummy birthday lunch at school for me and Ellen...I LOVE Chinese chicken salad :-)

2-25-09
Today in youth group we re-arranged the furniture. It was fun...but I think we ruined some TV cords. And it wasn't the MOST spiritual night...but we did do some fun Bible Trivia :-)

2-26-09
Survivor again...Chinese again...plus I finished filling out some congratulations cards to my students for raising their reading levels. Sure, it takes time but I'm hoping that the small investment of my time will make a difference in their desire to continue working hard!

2-27-09
Ahh...finally Friday. I had to cover detention today during the Staff vs. Student Ball game...it stank. It really stank. I hate having to be the mean teacher at detention. And then a quiet evening at home doing the bills, reconciling the accounts, and finishing the taxes. It feels good to have it done! Plus, a whopping $40 refund. It's funny that we're disappointed in that when all a refund is is the government giving back the money that we overpaid anyway. It's not really extra or free in the first place :-) funny!

2-28-09
Sleeping in RULES! Basketball today...EV lost :-( versus Othello of all teams! We won..and the games were at EV so again...it was fun to see my friends :-) **See above post at the beginning for the rest of today**

So...tomorrow...I WILL POST and (now repeat after me) I WILL correct the essay, I WILL correct the essays, I WILL correct the essays!